I know the answer is, either suck it up or change jobs! But I'm torn. I love my boss and I enjoy what I do. I'm blessed and I do a great job because he has been a positive mentor. He looks out for me. Although, I know he doesn't "love" everyone we work with either (since he's told me behind closed doors), he's still been there longer and deals with it very well. Other than him and my 4 graphic (male) designers... the rest of the co-workers are women! Not cool women though- Annoying and ugly (yes, I said it) women!
Now, I am not one who has a hard time with women relationships at all. However, the friends I associate with on my time, are ones I "personally pick from preferred apple trees"! I think that's why I feel like I am between a rock and a spiked wall, at times. The girls in my department are ones I'd NEVER be friends with. They are a mix of cornballs, former sorority chicks and Mid-Westerners who moved NY and think they know it all. They wear LAME clothes, are very clicky, blurt their PERSONAL business out loud, have bad hairstyles, can't get dates, lack sex, lack style, and make me sick! I've been out with them on (forced) occasions, work functions and birthdays and have not been convinced, otherwise. As a result, I do what I have to do, speak to them only professionally, and keep them at a distance. But I still think that doesn't help the situation because inside I still have ill feelings. I don't want to work with people who are my close friends BUT the feeling of "not being able to stand them" isn't good either.
I appreciate that my boss and I have a bond but it is not so publicly televised and it's better that way. I enjoy our one-on-one talks and appreciate how he is always very respectful towards me. He always tells me, that my success is HIS success and that is proven to beTRUE! He'll do what it takes to get ahead which sets an example for me to do the same. I am the only one who can put brakes on my success. So with that said, I know I must change the way I FEEL.
Unfortunately, we cannot be as blessed when it comes to people we work with. That is why we need to play our part and play it well (always). I will not allow anyone to step on my toes but I shouldn't stoop to their level, either. If I am "present" (as Eckhart says), I'll be able to see that it is my ego who's annoyed, not me. And I'll be able to see that it's their egos that make them jealous and wack! Ultimately, if I allow them to GET TO ME, it can only hurt me in the long run.
Corporate America is out-of-control and that is NO MATTER WHERE you go! Unfortunately, it's where we spend most of our time so we must make it work for us. My girlfriend (outside of work) shed light on me today by stating, "Everyone believes their matters are important. A car only has one driver; therefore, drive your way through. Remember you have the key!"
So Vroom, vrooom bitches!! I'm putting the keys into ignition. This of course doesn't change the fact that they are lame but it can change the fact that they make me want to throw scissors at them!
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